and life will never be the same..

Well,

It has almost been a full week since I gave birth to the most amazing thing God has ever given me. How has it been a week already? where has the time gone? We are still dealing with a few health issues. We went to the pediatrician yesterday and her jaundice levels had elevated again so we have to return to the hospital in the morning to get the levels checked yet again. I am hoping they are going back down or else she will have to go through photo therapy again. She is somewhat getting into the routine of eating...we don't have an issue at all when she is hungry, but its all on her time and only when she wants it and wants to be awake. Some times it is 4 or 5 hours in between feedings because she just wont wake up. But when she does eat, boy does she eat! She is also having to go on medication for her kidney. It was slightly inflamed and they will check it again in a month. Its so hard to think every thing will be ok when all I want is for my little baby to be healthy and ok.

Last night Jerrod and i gave her her first sponge bath. she didn't enjoy it all that well, but she did enjoy her massage after right before bed!

Today I finally made my way downstairs. She tried her snug-a-bunny swing, which she found very entertaining. Then we headed down the road and had our two neighbors; Stephanie and Sara do her newborn photo shoot! I am so excited to see the pictures! I took one on my phone and I know what they will come up with is going to be so much better!!

She is going to sleep well tonight I think (although she already sleeps well at night). 

My mom and sister left yesterday..It was so nice to have them here...the time came and went too fast. I wish we lived closer so she could be around family more. But i have to remind myself that New Jersey is so much better than if we were still stuck in Arizona. My dad,  brother, sister in law and niece will be making there way here tomorrow evening to spend the weekend visiting. I feel so blessed to have gotten orders here to be close to the families.

As soon as I laid eyes on my little baby everything changed. I immediately couldn't imagine my life without  her. She is so perfect. Now lets all pray that we can get her two health issues under control and we can move on from worrying.

She's Here!

It's hard to imagine that my little angel will be 5 days old come the morning. After all the waiting, prepping and anticipation she arrived via c-section on friday morning june 15th at 10:23am. She weighed 9.2 lbs and was 22 1/2inches long. She even has a good head of hair! (I assumed she would after the acid reflux I had been suffering since December). My mom and sister made it to the hospital by friday evening and were able to come right over and see her after a long day on the road. She is more beautiful than I could ever imagine and I already don't know what I would do with out her. she has gorgeous blue grey eyes, only time will tell which way they go in color. She looks just like her daddy!




We were supposed to be released this morning, however Her jaundice levels were too high and we had to stay here an extra day so she could get light therapy. Perhaps it was one of the hardest days here emotionally. I have waited so long to have her in my arms and I have had to spend the past 24 hrs watching her in the nursery in what looks like a baby tanning bed only getting to hold her every 2-3 hours for feeding time. Around 6 o'clock this afternoon her levels had started to drop so we are hoping  the morning brings good news and she can go home.

My mom and  sister are staying until Wednesday morning. It has been so nice to have them here and for them to see Addison and be able to visit even though its all been in the hospital. Im so happy we are here and not in Arizona anymore. Family is more important than anything. My brother and Theresa, my dad and JJ are coming to visit this weekend to meet the newest addition. Aunt Lou and Aunt Peg will be here for a day trip friday with Jess. I love having the family so close atlast!

I am hoping that the worst is behind me physically recuperating. The surgery was a lot worse than I had expected, but mostly that is because of my bad reaction to the morphine that was given to me for the spinal tap. It made me very sick and nauseous for the first 18-24 hours making it hard for me to start breast feeding right away since every time I sat up or tried to stand and move I would throw up. The actual incision is still really sore but nothing compared to the first few days. I'm just ready to get home and out of this hospital bed..its so uncomfortable and not to mention I miss my animals who I'm sure think that I have abandoned them by now.

The hospital photographer came and put together a little slideshow yesterday, here it is!
http://www.our365.com/NewbornPortraits/BabyDetail.aspx?birthid=a26c8e69-ac15-421f-aeba-36239d549ba0&utm_source=wnshare&utm_medium=email&utm_content=wnshare_mom_babylink&utm_campaign=wnshare_button#
and heres the password 810401393259830

5am friday

They have moved us up to the first surgery slot on friday! We will be checked in by 5am and surgery is scheduled for 7:30. :)
So excited to see my mom and sister who are coming in friday evening and staying until next week. Im going to miss my daddy though who cant take such short notice because of work.Thank god for skype!
My brother and sister inlaw and niece will be visiting next weekend...there first trip to New Jersey to see us!

yet another change...

Change of plans yet again...we will be delivering Addison on friday! They had a cancellation and squeezed us in.

Her birthday will be June 15th on her 39th week mark :)

change of plans

Well, our 38 week mark has come and gone and with it some new news of the expected arrival. We spent last week visiting our high risk specialist and our OB trying to decide what to do. Addison is already 8.15lbs; just pushing 19lbs with still 2 weeks left until her due date and a possible 10lb baby. As of right now all of her weight is in her tummy and shoulders. Her head size  is about 2 weeks further along than is should be. After a long emotional discussion  with both Drs it has been decided to forgo a    scheduled Cesarean section. They are afraid that even if I could get the head delivered that her shoulders are so broad there is a very high chance that I could not get them out and we would be forced to have an emergency c-section anyways. Not to mention there were many other factors as well that could potentially put me or Addison into distress, and we don't want that.


For myself it was  a very difficult decision. I was disappointed that I would not be able to deliver her, that my body would not allow it. But as everyone pointed out we have to do what is best for her, because that is what is important. Is it what I had planned? no. But we went into this pregnancy with open minds knowing things might change and we needed to do what ever was best for our baby. It hasn't been an easy ride, but we are right at the end. This pregnancy didn't start out how we had expected, so why should it end smoothly? This little one is surely full of surprises. So as of right now her due date is the 19th, unless they can get me in earlier, or I go into labor by myself.
Recovery will be long and hard, which I am not looking forward to, but now we know at least that in 9days or less she will be here and I will get to hold my little girl. I am so anxious.

37 weeks and 4 days

 Today we had an appointment with our high risk specialist. With 27 days left until our EDD we found out she is already weighing in at a little over 8 pounds. Of course it can be give or take a pound in either direction when it comes to her actual weight at birth, but regardless she is going to be a big girl. Her head is measuring 2 weeks ahead and as the Dr put it; she has a chunky little round belly. Our little rolly polly girl! Good thing we didn't buy  newborn size clothing!

Two nights ago we had quite the panic of a night full of contractions, but since they were never consistent we didn't go to the hospital which was probably ok since it ended up being false labor. Shouldn't be too much longer now until the real thing! Atleast we made it through to our labor and delivery class last weekend.