change of plans

Well, our 38 week mark has come and gone and with it some new news of the expected arrival. We spent last week visiting our high risk specialist and our OB trying to decide what to do. Addison is already 8.15lbs; just pushing 19lbs with still 2 weeks left until her due date and a possible 10lb baby. As of right now all of her weight is in her tummy and shoulders. Her head size  is about 2 weeks further along than is should be. After a long emotional discussion  with both Drs it has been decided to forgo a    scheduled Cesarean section. They are afraid that even if I could get the head delivered that her shoulders are so broad there is a very high chance that I could not get them out and we would be forced to have an emergency c-section anyways. Not to mention there were many other factors as well that could potentially put me or Addison into distress, and we don't want that.


For myself it was  a very difficult decision. I was disappointed that I would not be able to deliver her, that my body would not allow it. But as everyone pointed out we have to do what is best for her, because that is what is important. Is it what I had planned? no. But we went into this pregnancy with open minds knowing things might change and we needed to do what ever was best for our baby. It hasn't been an easy ride, but we are right at the end. This pregnancy didn't start out how we had expected, so why should it end smoothly? This little one is surely full of surprises. So as of right now her due date is the 19th, unless they can get me in earlier, or I go into labor by myself.
Recovery will be long and hard, which I am not looking forward to, but now we know at least that in 9days or less she will be here and I will get to hold my little girl. I am so anxious.